It's something which I do a couple of times every year, take a day off work and just wander around alone, watching a movie, having brunch at some breezy cafe (With 'breezy' being a key word here, it must be breezy!), reading a book in some quiet park. It's what I call my-day-off-and-mine-only-and-nobody-else's. And it is an absolutely necessary thing for me to to do in order to keep my sanity. For a few hours every couple of days a year, I spend time with just myself, and nobody else, and I don't usually look very kindly on those who intrude on those day offs!
This time however, instead of doing what I usually do, I spent the day with Evie instead, in honour of her 26th birthday. We met for a slow leisurely lunch of too much food. And then attempted to take photos with a camera that refused to work because of user-stupidity problems. Wanted to catch a movie, and ended up watching a cringe-worthy 'Wet Dreams 2'. The fact that I had not vomit all over the cinema floor due to large amounts of cringing and grimacing during the movie itself is testament to my strong self-control. Well, it was fun anyway; Evie and me - we're the invincible happy people. We squash Boredom by sitting on it, and making sure it doesn't rear its boring head.
But while fun days are, well, fun, I think I need to take another day off just to 'find myself'. Fun's all good and well, and while it does make life more bearable on one of those 'off-days', it doesn't sustain me for too long. At the end of the day, the things around me - the environment I live in and work in, my friends with their good intentions and their good advice, my trusty punching bag, won't be able to take me through all the crap. This is the slickest of cliches, but it's what's inside me that really counts, and it's what's inside that will take me through the long hual. And I desperately need to sort my insides out.
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