I woke up one day and forgot who I am...

E, in her random thought of the day, today, was just wondering what would happen if she wakes up one day and find her elephant memory bank wiped clean.

Empty. Zero. Blank.

Well, that's what I feel like now, and I'm feeling none too pleased about it.

Well, by some strange unfortunate occurence, actually more stupid and idiotic than anything else, the last 6 years of my electronic life has been wiped out totally, leaving me feeling really cheated. Not to mention really pissed at times.

I used to have this really impressive, not to mention organised list of Favourites, of my favourite websites, ranging from so-darn-good blogs to travellogues to e-books to Calvin & Hobbes cartoons to interior decorations to currency calculators to world time calculators to converters to fortune telling sites to online bookstores blah blah blah. Essentially, my whole life, in electronic form. Some of these sites I can google them, but for those that I chanced upon because my lucky star was shining above my halo-ed head, I've lost them forever.

And this is just internet Favourites. I haven't even mention about the amount of emails that I have lost, just because. And there were a couple that were of great sentimental value. Love letters, followed by Hate letters, and then Make-up letters. Little silly moments of mirth. A quick jot of genius. Vignettes of office life. All captured electronically, and now all gone. (This is the part where I put my head down on the table and weep. Copiously.)

There was this blog that somehow sparked my spirit and I felt an instant affinity for. And now I can't find the life of it find it. It's forever lost in the great big World Wide Web, and I don't even know how to start looking for it. I am so upset I could just cry.

I feel like I've lost some years of my life. I feel like I've lost the best years of my life. And that I'll never ever get it back. It's like waking up one day, and finding out you never had a past. And without a past, what kind of future can there be?

Life sucks.