Empty

I'm sure everybody has been shown a half-filled glass of water, and asked, do you see the glass as half empty, or half full.

They say it's all about perspective and stuff, whether we choose to look on the bright side of things or chose to be pessimistic about it.

Well, what if I show you a totally empty glass? There's no perspective to that now is there? An empty glass is an empty glass, no arguing about that.

Well, I've been through the half-empty / half-full stage.

And what do you know, it doesn't take one long to get to the totally empty stage! At this point, you're at zero, at the bottom of the pit, the lowest life form at the bottom of the food chain. Nope you can't get any lower than that.

At this point, it feels like only a smidgen of what may be called hope is left. Your dignity and pride has disintegrated into thin air, and leaves no traces whatsoever that it was even there before. Everything you thought you had, you thought wrong. You're exposed for what you are, which is actually nothing very much.

The brains you thought you had? Well, ii was actually held together by bubblegum. And you thought you had friends? Well, you thought wrong. Smart, shrewd, respected, beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, talented, can count to 10 etc etc etc, well, it just shows we can spell these words.

(Haha..I have to be more descriptive about this so you guys can identify with it. You all know you've been there at some point.)

So there I was, at Empty.

Zero. Nought. Kosong. 0. In whatever language.

Trust me, it is a frightening place to be.

After the fear though, came a strange liberation.

Because I no longer had to pretend to be something when I was nothing.

I no longer had to attempt to be something that I never was - pretty, nice, smart.

I am now an empty canvas, just waiting to be filled up. I could start working at being really something from ground zero. Instead of trying to cover my nothingness with all sorts of fluff and smoke and red herrings.

A full glass or a half full glass of water contains essentially that, water.

But with an empty glass, the possiblities are endless. Orange juice, watermelon juice, cranberry juice, lemonade......

So here I am, empty!

Fill me up baby! And I can be whatever I want to be!