I just turned down a job offer. And although I have extremely valid reasons for rejecting the offer, I still can't help feeling a little broken up about it.
Somehow, when one has been in a state of, for lack of a better word, feeling left wanting, there's this tendency to just grab or jump onto the next thing that comes along, even if it's a low-paying job with low returns on one's hard work.
I've seen that happen with other people when it comes other things like partners as well; going out with the most unsuitable and inappropriate type of people, and those on the sidelines thinking, "What is she/he thinking? Can't he/she tell that the person they're dating is a nasty piece of work/gold-digger/whore/asshole/hooligan/fill-in-the-blanks-yourself?". It's not really their fault that they do these things you know; they really can't see it.
So how does one not fall into doing that? It's so easy to lose sight of things when circumstances, situations or just life starts to overwhelm one.
I don't know.
"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."
Isn't it sad that this is the fate of many, doing the things that they wouldn't have wanted to do if only they had a little more clarity, a little more objectivity.
Just a little bit more to breaking free.
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