I'm really angry at the world right now and I don't want to have anything to do with it. I need to be proven wrong, that the world is not the crap that it looks, smells and tastes like, and there is some good in some of the people in some of the world after all, and that mankind is not full of manipulators and smooth-talkers and liars and PR talkers who of course are deluded into thinking that they're something better than what they really are, and to add to it, make every effort to try to convince everybody around them to buy into that delusion as well.
What's wrong with everybody?
What's wrong with me? Some people see dead people, others see unicorns, I see through the humbug and the delusions that people choose to gift-wrap themselves with. And it's an uncomfortable feeling, not to mention frustrating, to see so much about people and to have to deal with the fact that, hey, everybody is a bit of a liar/cheat/manipulator/exaggerator, that everybody is to a certain extent insincere/selfish/self-centered/obsessed with money.
It made me sad, but now it's making me angry, angry that people have chose the easier way than to do the right thing.
A patient visited a doctor and told him, "Doctor, every thing I touch on my body hurts. My head hurts, my knee hurts, my chest hurts, my ear hurts, my nose hurts" to which the doctor replied, "You've broken your finger."
Maybe it's true. The world we know today is not more hateful and dishonest than it was yesterday; it was always this way. Long ago in Genesis, Cain killed his brother; it is still going on today. The only thing that's hurting itself, and to no good end is the broken finger. The broken finger will continue to hurt, its poking and probing having no effect and impact whatsoever.
I don't want to suffer; it's really not worth it, feeling so much crap and bewailing the current state of the world and society. The last time I felt like this, I managed to numb myself. This time it's harder and it's worse, what worked before won't work this time. I need to effectively sever the issue at its roots or it will come back to haunt me again. I can't stick my head in a hole and ignore the rest of the world, and I don't want to end up hating people; I need a real solution. I need to learn tolerance and patience and all that crap to stop me from judging everybody so quickly and easily. Even if they're really scumbags and dastards, I refuse to sink to their level.
What's wrong with everybody?
What's wrong with me? Some people see dead people, others see unicorns, I see through the humbug and the delusions that people choose to gift-wrap themselves with. And it's an uncomfortable feeling, not to mention frustrating, to see so much about people and to have to deal with the fact that, hey, everybody is a bit of a liar/cheat/manipulator/exaggerator, that everybody is to a certain extent insincere/selfish/self-centered/obsessed with money.
It made me sad, but now it's making me angry, angry that people have chose the easier way than to do the right thing.
A patient visited a doctor and told him, "Doctor, every thing I touch on my body hurts. My head hurts, my knee hurts, my chest hurts, my ear hurts, my nose hurts" to which the doctor replied, "You've broken your finger."
Maybe it's true. The world we know today is not more hateful and dishonest than it was yesterday; it was always this way. Long ago in Genesis, Cain killed his brother; it is still going on today. The only thing that's hurting itself, and to no good end is the broken finger. The broken finger will continue to hurt, its poking and probing having no effect and impact whatsoever.
I don't want to suffer; it's really not worth it, feeling so much crap and bewailing the current state of the world and society. The last time I felt like this, I managed to numb myself. This time it's harder and it's worse, what worked before won't work this time. I need to effectively sever the issue at its roots or it will come back to haunt me again. I can't stick my head in a hole and ignore the rest of the world, and I don't want to end up hating people; I need a real solution. I need to learn tolerance and patience and all that crap to stop me from judging everybody so quickly and easily. Even if they're really scumbags and dastards, I refuse to sink to their level.
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